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Tuesday, June 30, 2009 at 4:53 PM

IDK why the teachers are trying to find out what we wanna do when we grow up. Like, I'm only like FOURteen. Still, I'm not really sure what I REALLY want to do. My mum has like fantasies of me becoming a dentist to take care of giving her her crowns or something. She wants IMPLANTS my dear, it's not dentures anymore.-sighs-. And and ROUGHLY this is what I wanna do:
1. (ahemahem)
2. accountant(MUNNAYYE)
3. dentistry
4. (if I wake up) surgeon[specialist]
5. photographer(snapsnap)

Haha I SO know that right if I don't become a dentist right, my mum will like skin me alive and use my bones for her dentures.

And and Jess you're like making me feel worse in a way and damn high and happy-ish. You meano. First tell me his hand is bigger than yours, and then you tell me it's damn warm. D: RWAR! AND THEN, you tell me he likes 누나들이 more. Very hurtful you know. LOL

oh oh and here's my action plan for option 1. :D I shall continue learning drums, guitar and piano and then after my streaming I shall resume learning korean :D how about that? and then, audition for Fish & Chips Music :D

I'll play for you.


Monday, June 29, 2009 at 8:34 PM

LOL omg i remember just about an hour ago i was really pissed. but now i just just forgot at what. uh and today had to make a new email account D: i have like n gmail accounts already! i feel bad okay! and and those that DO know what the unknown in, shaddup. :D and OMG just cause my name is so 'unique' with an extra hyphen in the middle of my chinese name i don't know how to make my account cause the instructions didn't mention anything about hyphens.
and AND, OMG jess commented how seunghyun's hand was bigger than hers. :O....like her has is seriously soooou much bigger than mine. imagine if i shook hands with him. omg so high. and, to show an emphasis of how the sizes of our hands differ i shall get a drawing of our hands. my hands are so small! D:

oh oh and way to show your awesome FTI spirit huh? D:
"F-T-I-S-L-A-N-D LET'S GO!"
-pulling up my socks-
"F-T-I-S-" -tiara&jess suddenly stop and dispersed-
"L!-A!-N-d-..." D:.... 
LOL DAMN EMBARRASSING CAN?!
and and amanda, kudos to the way your answered that random stranger(: i was so moved. i could never speak like that though i know those facts. and AND today is..... a very special someone's birthday! :D
동호 오빠,생일 축하합니다!


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Sunday, June 28, 2009 at 10:01 PM

okay, the depression is kicking in~ HAHA omg sorry if i start emo-ing. i miss my hunnayye D: <3 i'm deciding to brush up on my korean too;] and~ today is a certain someone's birthday :D okay, and once again, i'm sorry for forgetting your birthday mel! LOVE YOU LOADS :D OKAY and i just remembered what topped of my depression with a nice bright red cherry on top. SCHOOL STARTS IN THE NEXT 0900. and i just realised my sista's coming back to SG on tuesday babeyy! awesummmmm! and and i almost forgot to mention this : BIG BANG LIVES IN LIKE A REALLY AWESOME HOSTEL. and i just realised G-D's got tattoos D;(안돼~~~~~) cool meaning to it though :P okay~ okay. i'm dreading going back to school. haha i remember i've got tons of homework but i dont remember which one so i didnt do any at all except for project work and online math tests. ughhhhhh, okay i wanna get a shrink to screammm at and watch him shrink in fear of my unpredictability. OMG OMG OMG I NEED MANGOES. I NEED A NEW BAG. I NEED A WATCH. (승현 오빠 보고싶다. 그는 하고싶은데) and jess in a way it's your fault for asking me to come along to the airport with you. it started out all with the airport. I HATE FEELING SAD. oh well, i'll guess i'll just sleep it off. and and a sudden switch of sleeping about 2-3+ am in the morning to sleeping at 12am, not exactly great. tomorrow's gonna be a sleep-in class for me D: okay and uhm:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN! 
i think you're like 15 right now right? awesomeee, keep staying one year older than me kay? it'll totally help :D

I'll play for you.


Saturday, June 27, 2009 at 10:31 PM

OMG, mean girls much. seriously kid, you wanna bash someone up online, do it to their face. AND honestly i don't see why you have to be so mean and exaggerated to get people to be on your side. AND just because a certain someone you don't want to be your friend anymore, DOESN't mean you can manipulate your mutual friends to be against her. AND now that she isn't your friend, DOESN't mean she'll spread your secrets right? unless you have, that's why you're so insecure. DON'T call people FAKES. until you know the real meaning of one. IF you're gonna continue living like that, one day, people will get tired of your constant crap. and no one will be there for you when you really need someone to lean on. why? ask yourself. go reflect on what you've done. you should treat people better. get to KNOW them better before you JUDGE them.
some people are sensitive, some are colder than you'd expect, some unreasonable, some are hot-headed. YOU DON'T MAKE FUN OF THEM OR LAUGH AT THEM CAUSE THEY FEEL 'OH,SO HURT' YOU DON'T RUB IT IN THEIR FACE. people who do that are inhuman. so, think harder, who's the person who's the real fake? if you still don't realise it, you're probably just in denial.


ANYWAYY OMG FTI IS GETTING HOTTER BY THE DAY! LOL watched them on gag concert FREAKING FUNNY CAN?! HAHAH and the way 왕비호 compared their stage to FTI's LMAO!

I'll play for you.


FTIsland leaving our shores
at 7:14 PM

oh yeah, jess confirmed for me yesterday that the guy with the dyed-brown hair, isn't minhwan. but SEUNGHYUN! honestly i didn't believe it, until i saw seunghyun's recent hairstyle. it was the same as the brown-haired guy. except, not black. LOL and i felt so disappointed i didn't see seunghyun, when my eyes were fixed on him the whole time! AHHHHH! and and i can't believe they have to leave today D: NOOOOU~
oh and jess kept telling me this morning that i should have flashed my message banner when FTI walked pass. because this fan dropped a balloon and seunghyun picked it up. and she told me i probably should have dropped my tacky banner as well. HAHA. it's a piece of foolscap paper my dear! he'd label it as litter(probably, if it were faced downwards with the empty side to his face). and not to mention, seunghyun was walking along the other side of the railings. so the fans opposite me would have a higher chance reaching out to him than me D:
these three days made me feel that it was so surreal.
FTI i hope you have a safe trip home(: and do try to come back again in december :D

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FT ON OUR ISLAND RIGHT BEFORE MY EYES!
Friday, June 26, 2009 at 11:09 PM

haha okay that was yesterday was too high to like blog though. ._."

YESTERDAY
learned how to play them drums :D got to see FTI! haha okay i DID write the message on a piece of paper in hot pink (marker) ink. BUT i didn't like flash it along with the other banners HAHAHA. i'm crazy, but not crazy enough :D. okay, here are the crazy things that i was crazy enough to do.
[x]stand on the railing
[x]scream my pitiful heart out
[x]write my message to seunghyun(on foolscap paper, did it on the spot. meant to pass off as a banner)
[x]cheered " F-T-I-S-L-A-N-D LET'S GO!" two times along with the fans :D
[ ]flash my message banner when FTI passed by
[x]ran to their van immediately i wasn't the psychopathic fan banging on their window, i just ran after jess :D i PROMISE
[x]became an official fan after the commotion(the screams could be heard throughout the terminal i think could it was really deafening when the real stars arrived. FT, singapore fans are awesome right? come again lah!)

okay after the few mistaken cheers thinking it was FTI, we had a few laughs. but when it was the real deal, man the girls went wild xD. for your info, i am a girl. like literally. there were more than a hundred girls. awesome right? awesome singapore spirit right? ikr?! and since today i love 최민환,too :D idk why though. oh oh i saw a pair of blondes like walking out of the gate we were surrounding. you should have seen their faces : what the-... who's the famous person coming? OH and this lady asked me who was coming.
'oh, some korean band called FTIsland :D'
'okay' walks off
really disheartening HAHA. they were wearing masks due to the flu outbreak and i think one or two were wearing sunglasses. gawdd cant even recognize them. i only remember there was this guy with the dyed brown coloured hair, cause his hair was so nice my eyes were like glued onto him. and AND he flicked his hair as he walked past me(so hot -drools-). haha, i think it was minhwan. OMG i can't believe i got to get such a close glimpse :O but not as great as the fan-meet lah duhh. haha. oh and one of the members probably got suffocated by his mask and lowered it till his nose. pfft. so cold you people, didnt even except those fans' gifts to you.
OH OH AND DO COME AGAIN AT THE END OF THIS YEAR :D

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FT ON OUR ISLAND
Thursday, June 25, 2009 at 2:03 AM

WHOO. Okay I felt a sudden surge of euphoria, and couldn't help but BLOG about it. WHOO HOO! -cheers- FTI IS COMING TO SINGAPORE TODAY! And I'm going to the airport to welcome them :D don't get me wrong I'm not their fan. HAHA. Actually accompanying Jess, and, at the same time get to see 승현오빠(:승현오빠가 서을에서 오다,싱가포르에 이르다. 잊에 느낌이 진짜 정말로 흥분해요. Like killing two birds with one stone. Haha and when they arrive, my plan is to shout: 승현오빠,많이 사랑해! 제가 핸드폰 번호를 팔-일-영-영-일-오-삼-일! 열락해! LOL just kidding. I won't do that. I'll be embarrassing myself, and it's obvious he won't contact me. HAHAHA. Tomorrow after seeing them at the airport, we're gonna stalk them to their accommodation, and then go for supper! :D
Oh oh the way Tiara ended her conversation with me today
Tiara:잊에는 끝
LOL like's she's breaking up with me you know, so abrupt. I don't really remember what she said to me word for word cause she kept speaking in korean. I only remember the last word for sure '끝' lol. 네가 우리는 우정 끝창내다 처럼. 그건인지 사실이야,넌 죽었어. >:( ㅋㅋ 농담이야.
I want to improve in korean! I wanna learn more on how to make perfect sentences! D:
oh oh WATCHED INTIMATE NOTE feat. Big Bang. SOO FUNNY! Much more funnier than when Super Junior were the guests. and i suddenly love G-D and jaebeom sooou much. But it's okay it'll be over in less than a week D:

끝너!

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Satellites are awesome
Tuesday, June 23, 2009 at 8:13 PM

I LOVE SATELLITES! Yeahhh!! Thank God for them!
Okay just got to see my childhood home from the age of 3 to 6. Nothing nostalgic, but i definitely remember the slope that goes down! HELLL YEAHH THAT WAS LOADS OF FUN! 

And and after school, we'd walk home (Ben and me) together. Sometimes, we'd walk home via the beach. Total awesomeness. I remember seeing a dead hedgehog lying near the curb one day. But in Singapore you'd only find hit-and-run rats. Gross. Oh oh I miss the playground that was surrounded by trees. 

I remember my school too! Gosh, I remember the library. Awesome library they had,seriously. They'd have colouring-in papers. And and they were most of the time pokemon. I used to have a friend called Brittany but I think I stopped talking to her cause I saw her talking to Ben. Then she sort of begged me to like eat recess with her. I probably said 'no' and she played tug of war with my bag with me. Which, resulted in my bag being ripped(it was just the handle, but whateverr it was soo tacky HAHA). I got really angry at her. OMG I WAS A MEAN GIRL WHEN I WAS FIVE.

And I so totally remember the TRAMPOLINE  at the back of my house! AND A TREEHOUSE. ALSO, I remember getting my first letter! And after that, I ran to the trampoline and jumped, jumped, jumped and voila! I lost my letter. BUT not to fret I got the same looking letter again. I was wondering how the person who sent it knew I'd lost the previous one. But now when I think of it, my parents probably just found it.

Oh and here's a video of hawwwwwt 2PM practicing(I got it off tiara's blog). I just love them :D AND the guy that's tying his shoelaces at his part is one of the guys I like :D For a fan, I'm really horrible, I don't know any of their names except for Junsu. WHOO! 많이 사랑해!

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Days of our lives
Monday, June 22, 2009 at 9:10 PM

Awesome, my day just keeps getting better and better. These people are very hypocritical to me. Their actions do speak louder than words. BUT the thing is, their actions contradict each other. They leave you in the dark on purpose. They don't know the meaning of 'simplicity'. They don't know how to get simple messages across properly. Or rather, even better, to not at all. Yes,a wonderful perfect world we live in.



I'll play for you.


at 3:49 PM

Haha, my friends are all sending me links to vote for school to open another week later. YOU LAZY FAT PIGS are you like dumb? They'll make us compensate for the one week somehow, one way or another. Our country is very calculative.
And my primary schoolmate JiaRu, GET WELL SOON! May the Lord bless you, and keep you(literally). I'm still wondering how you got H1N1. My brother is dying to get it. Ah, he's just siiiiiick. Chung Cheng's got three cases already. I wonder how many cases TKSS has. I hope TK doesn't have any, we're all smart girls aren't we? :D yeahh!!
I think I woke up on the wrong side of bed today. Calm down, take deep breaths, and forget everything like how you always do. I've been a reallll bad sarcastic girl today. I feel bad, duhh. But not enough to apologize lah, seriously. I just noticed when I'm in a bad mood and when i vent it out on people i get really sarcastic. But my sarcasm makes me even more aggravated. Tsk. Whateverrr.
Talking to Hannah on MSN right now. Feels really great, I haven't talked to her in a long while. I miss primary school badly D:

I'll play for you.


life's greatest exaggeration
Sunday, June 21, 2009 at 12:43 AM

AT THE BIGG HOUSE
it was bigg
my jaw dropped
and my phone shook in vibration
-GASPS-
yeah i was smsing tiara in hope she would kill my boredom
not be the root of it
she smses people other than THE ONE like a sloth
'ey ben our house isn't as big as the living room right?'
'no, the size of this house is the same square feet size of our block'

oh met new guy same age as ben
haha the way he spoke was damn hilarious
a bit like klar's except male-er
'waleou~ every morning got car show'
i'm not into cars
'got mercedes....one ferrari...BMWs....'
he did elaborate more but my memory card was too full
HAHA oh ben and that guy had neutral friends
one of them has this as her pm on MSN
'i'm dying because i'm too beautiful' (something like that)in french
freaking ego dudeee
'take me to Fort Canning in the night and kiss me' ?
THIS is what his friend told ben and the guy
same content different lines
this girl's really random HAHA

another case of another neutral friend
'her toilet is like a resort with all the pebbles and plants around in open-air'
'yeah these people are all siiiiiick'
'i wonder why she even has an MSN account she never seems to be online'
'her house is too big lahh'

okay i only remember i wanted to laugh like crazy
i can't remember at what though
watched THE TRUMAN STORY was really nice
i've just shared a part of 'life's greatest exaggerations'

I'll play for you.


Saturday, June 20, 2009 at 2:24 PM

omg just turned to kbs world and saw this little kid singing in her OWN MV
the korean singers are just getting younger and younger by the day
her teeth haven't even fully grown yet(not that she's bogay or anything)
the name is i&(아이앤)
since i'm a bit upset due to the fact that she's only 12,
i'm quite sure tiara won't be feeling any different(:
그렇지, 티아라씨?
and AND i&'s pretty-cute yes i'm jealous LOL shaddup
this is her photo

oh oh and another thing, she's DEFINITELY taller than me, shaddup

my dad just invited me to his friend's house for dinner
he refers to the kids that're gonna be there as my "friends"
'they're not my friends'
'tsk. don't be anti-social'
to those who have watched the video in my previous entry,
yes, as you can see my dad, too doesn't want me to be anti-social
haha another point i missed out; not wanting to go
'why don't you wanna go? his house is really big'
'that's the point'
and as you all can see, i have an excessively-sociable dad
hurhur,i still don't wanna go there for dinner


I'll play for you.


at 2:12 AM

HEY there! Does anyone know when Father's Day is?
Haha okay whateverr. Whenever it is, I just wanna share this really cute video.
Matt Koval is awesome :D

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY DAD! 
love you loads!

xoxo,
RACHEL

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Friday, June 19, 2009 at 11:50 PM

I wanna find wings
But this time I'm finding MY wings
This time I'm not gonna borrow my friend's wings
I will, I have to, I must

I mean I can't always borrow my friend's wings
to always run around the school, right?

quote from klarissa: SHADDUP

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Sunday, June 14, 2009 at 4:41 PM

okay, today was a really nice sunday(:  i think we had like a cell group session. hurhur.

oh you should really check out my milk toof by inhae. i absolutely love her creativity and admire her work. so, if you're into cute stuffs and stories i really recommend that you go to her blog. you can even follow her on facebook(: 

oh OH my mum's gonna confiscate Lappy after the june hols. NOOOU, my hunnayye say you'll stay with me! haha, i'm soo copying klarissa's style of talking(sorry). and AND after i came back from Lifegames camp, i keep saying "dude" and "man" worst exclamation-words everrr.

xoxo,
RACHEL

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